Children Pornographic..PLS STOP!!

I watched Oprah today and today's topic was so disturbing that it stucked in my mind.

Well, it was actually about child pornographic. Basically, the children are forced to have sex and most of them are aged between 4-6.. It's like.. What are those people thinking. Children are supposed to be loved, to be pampered.. They should be laughing instead of crying in pain.

One of the porn, as described by the Oprah guest, showed how a tiny little girl, tied on a bed where several kids at the side of the bed watching. A man came and started touching her and raped her for more than 30 minutes. For that tape, the creator of the tape removed the sound so that viewers wont hear her voice shouting and crying. It's so sad. How can she endure such pain at such a young age.

I seriously don't know how some people enjoy watching it. These kind of people are sick and they shouldn't be allowed to be near children.

What I miss the most in life..

I really miss dancing. I've been dancing my whole life. How I miss performing in front of people.. How I miss competing in dancing.. How I miss entertaining people.. How I miss being so tired but still keep moving coz dancing is what I like best.

'sigh..'

It's not that I want to stop but I have to put it on back to give way for future. I was once told myself.. If can't study, I'll dance..

I don't believe that I can get both. To choose between accountancy and dancing, I'll choose dancing. It's not easy to pursue dancing here and that is why I chose what I think will give me a brighter future. Maybe, if Im successful enough, I can dance again. So, right now, I'll just have to dance in front of the mirror to satisfy myself.

Heidi Montag can't dance? It's a shame..

Previously, I don't know who's Heidi Montag. Seriously, I don't give a damn.

So, how did I get to know her? HEIDI MONTAG 10 PLASTIC SURGERY IN A DAY of course.. Seriously, I like to see the transformation from ugly to pretty, or from pretty to ugly or maybe from ugly to uglier..

Im here not to talk about her 10 plastic surgeries in one day coz I think it's fine. It's her body.. It's her face..So..SO WHAT!!

Here I wanna comment about this video. I think she's Britney Spears wannabe. I don't like Britney Spears singing but I adore her moves. Britney Spears can dance.

On the other hand, Heidi Montag is disaster. She can't move (ok..maybe she can move a little..) but to pull out a dance like that.. She has failed. I think for Britney to dance like that, it will be a piece of cake.

Just look at her. She's out of tempo. Everything she does is like fast foward. She's sexy indeed but with that dance, she doesnt look sexy at all. Look at those girls behind her.. They can dance. I bet, if all of them were wearing the same clothes as what she wearing, people won't notice her at all. Or people will notice coz she has the weirdest moves among all of them..

if Britney vs Heidi???

Britney WINS

My mom and her appendicitis..

I took half day leave yesterday just to visit my mom. My sister and her fiance visited her the day before and told me that she looked pale. Actually, on Friday night, she had been complaining about the pain in her stomach, so, on Saturday morning she was brought to Sime Darby Healthcare to see what's going on. After some checkups, the doctor identified that she has appendicitis and was admitted right away. I think she went for her operation on the same day itself.


What made me angry was the fact that my younger sister didn't even know that she was admitted to the hospital and my mom had undergone a surgery. I even called her that Saturday itself to see what she doing and have a small talk. Apparently, she was still sleeping and everyone has gone out.

Ok..So, back to my story... Yesterday I told her that I was going to come over. WHAT HAPPENED?? She has forgotten that I was coming and went out for shopping. I was like.. "What!!! You're sick and you still have that energy to go out and shop??"

Well, I guess, she's just a Superwoman..

Racist??

Some guy just called just now and asked, is this ABC Company. I said YES. After that he asked,

Is the boss Chinese or Malay?

He hung up right after I said it's Chinese. Hurm..

Upcoming Chinese New Year

Any plans? I've none.. Im hoping something comes up and we actually have something to do during Chinese New Year.

My families are going back to Sabah. My sister and her fiance are going back next Thursday I guess so, me and my boyfriend will be alone at home along with Cody (our bodyguard)..

Well, Im thinking of not thinking of anything to do now coz if I plan earlier, it will end up failing. So, I'll do a last minute plan. Actually, Im quite good at last minute plans.

So, my cousin will be coming over from Johor. My mom asked us to use her car and stay at their house. Hey.. WHAT'S WRONG WITH STAYING AT MY HOUSE AND USING MY MY CAR??

Ok then.. Enjoy your holiday and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

There's just an empty space here

When a girl reached to a certain age, she will start think of starting a family and have kids. Most girls will dreamed of having the most perfect wedding they ever imagine. Having a beach wedding full with white roses on the isle along with acoustic back on the side playing my favorite songs.


But, how if the you partner does not think likewise. In fact, you're not even in his life plan? How if waiting for the answer will only lead you to disappointment? How if you really love that person and you're willing to take the risk of waiting when you know the chances are small, will you wait? Have you ever feel like your heart has been sprinkled by acid and when its about to heal, the sprinkle of acid comes again?

Thinking of this made me feel insecure. Just scared of making the wrong decision. I've made a lot of mistakes in the past and making more mistakes means wasting more time. But how if it is not a mistake? Should I take risk or just go where it brings me?